januari 2011

"gw mau nyoba buat tidur dan bermimpi. 

emang gw cuma bisa bahagia di mimpi"

orang yang sayang sama gw itu ga ada. yang ada cuma orang yang manfaatin gw. dia yang ngaku kk, sahabat, pacar. gw rasa semuanya sama aja. punya niat khusus yang bisa mereka dapetin dari gw. apa gw terlalu baik? mungkin Aloh memang Pengertian. Dia tau gw lemah, rapuh, manja, makanya Dia buat seperti ini. gw harus lebih sabar

malang

boga babaturan, kitu sabutuhna.
boga indung, pilih kasih.
boga bapa, jauh di sulawesi.
boga dulur, jarauh deuih.
boga saha deui atuh kuring?

9

1jam 22menit. ya tanggal 9 memang baru berjalan selama itu. tapi gw udah ngerasain sedihnya. ga ngerti, setiap ketemu tanggal ini gw pasti nangis karena hmm yaa bisa ditebak, ga jauh karena cowo.
ini tanggal jadian gw 1tahun 4bulan yang lalu. sebelumnya juga di tanggal yang sama tapi beda jauh bulannya. logis lah
harusnya gw seneng dan bersyukur ketemu tanggal ini soalnya Alloh udah ngasih umur untuk hubungan yang sulit dijalani selama ini. bersyukur (y) pasti, tapi seneng? sorry jarang.
emang ya manusia itu gak pernah puas. gw ngerasa kok sering jadi seseorang yang egois, tapi gw juga selalu jadi pemikir panjang disini. gw suka cape sendiri. sabar sabar sabar. gw emang wajib jadi penyabar sejati tapi kalo gw terus sabar dan gak berontak, kapan gw bakal di ngertiin? kapan gw dihargain? omongan gw gak pernah di denger. kenapa ya cowo gw hobi banget ngomong maaf? dia gak punya keinginan kuat buat meminimalisir kata maaf dalam artian dia lebih hati-hati biar gak ngelakuin kesalahan, iya kan? gw bingung, sampe kapan ya bakal kaya gini? ini udah berlangsung selama 16bulan. gak ada perubahannya, sumpah gw cape. apa semua cewe yang ada di posisi gw bakal kaya gini ya? bingung, nangis, bikin dia minta maaf. apa gw terlalu egois sampe gw sakit hati sendiri? gw mesti gimana lagi?

i dont know

my brain is gonna be explodes oow
y y y
i dont know and still not understand, what he said was different with what he did
y y y
headache -______-
gubye

and this is a

i never realized when my tears fell down, wet my cheeks
continuously until pooled
exhausted and replaced with blood
and this is a tragic affair, this is a real life, this is a broken heart
this is my truly love which in a tear
look at this and you can see how my feel was crush
yeah crush

one last cry

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down...
To my last cry...

mae : ih geloooo, sinting jelema. teu daek kenal deui. yaalloh asa nyesel mantuan geee. nciz sabarr nya, maap mun mae sok ngalusngaluskeun a ***. sumpah keuheul ! 
a hamdan : udah jangan dipikirin ambil aja keputusan yang terbaik buat kamu berdua. kalo kamu sayang ****** lanjutin aja tapi kamu jangan kasih kelonggaran, harus tegas suruh dia berubah. bapao jangan nangis ya. kalo situasinya gini kamu mah suka nangis geuleuh cengeng.
dita : pernah ngarasakeun urang ge. antep heula ayeuna mah si *** na. keun sina nyadar heula. sina eraeun heula, engke ge indung aku ngomong gera. heup lah nyeungceurikan lalaki nu goblog.
camat : bener teu ceuk aku?? tong bogoh teuing kalo misalnya udah pernah putus mah ngadeukeutan deui teh aya kahayang.
dejet : serakah cowo mah !
bang ilham : nya ku abang lagi di introgasi, sugan teh dd heureuy. jirr mun emang dia ngaku mah liat we dicoret dari temen abang soalnya sama aja ga ngerhargain abang juga yang dulu ngebantuin dia buat balik ke dd, ari udah dapet manisnya terus di piceun deui! tenang de ulah ngedrop lagi uas masih banyak orang yang sayang ke dd ieuh!
febri : putuskan saja!

thanks :'(

i dont understand anymore. what actually happens. she is lies? or he is lies? -_____-
what should i do? i want to rest, without problems behind me.
explain baby!

horay

finally, all done...
look at my photo header !
is it cool? haha
[ teu rapih ge bangga -____-' ]

the moon and the stars not come to see me, actually dark, 

i'm thinking of you in the middle of the night

i miss you

with heavy eyes and fatigue's body

with tears all this night

i miss you

no matter who you are

or how many pains that you throw of me

this is night without the moon and the stars

this is me without you accompany

and this is my trully feelings

i miss you

with all my heart and my breath

♥sano

tortured

this is me with all problems i have. this is me with my pity heart. but you never know.
stop tortured me! i'm yours if you guard me, and i'll follow you if you follow me too. is it hardly?
dont do this, dont let me fall again, dont lying, dont said anything about your promise. i'm fed up!
please hear me and keep my trust. dont make it crush, baby. i know you can. i know you love me. i know you want to be my man.

busy

twelve o'clock at my school
actually all students was going home at eleven o'clock, but here i'm finishing all my tasks. this is tired, but i'll doing this, because i'm a student exactly -__-
i'm lonely now, all my friend boys was praying [solat jumat]
i'm scare hohooo but the music of taylor swift still playing here, crush a silent class haha
but i really wanna go home, i'm hungry and i miss my blanket :(

hello december

this is the 1st at december, of course i have much hope for this month, specially about examination. i hope that given a succes in first semester exams.

and december, i will be a great partner at each your date, so give me a fun days though out this month :)
 

taylor swift said ...

If you're out there
If you're somewhere
If you're moving on
I've been waiting for you
Wary, since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just want to see you back at my front door
And I say

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you say it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I left you out
But I take it all back now

deep in my heart

here, i dont know what i feel when i see you in the shadow. glad, sad, beating, all in one. when we had a conversation, when we fight, when we kidding. your face, your laugh, your voice, all thing about you. you and you, just only you, my past who i imaged. you are the really first i had and never cross of my mind that we would separated. at that time. when we met, you gave me a sweet smile then my heart was beating.


and now, you come to me to talk everything about us at past time actually. i think i still loving you but the other hand, my heart was bound, and you also. i want to through the day with you over again. but this is so sad, i cannot do anything for this. i have someone, and he has someone too. we have to go through life and see a future. i pray for his happiness ever after.


#mypast, we stayed together as bestfriends

I'm very interested with this pictures

this is my cute little cousin, i always happy when i'm with him

this is my photo edited, and of course me as a model. not too good, but i feeling proud of this

this is a cute twice or maybe a pair of cute chicks :)

last, this is me with my favorite fruite, oranges. i think some people like this too,
because this is can make us go fresh.

so, have you an interest pictures like me? let me see, buddy :)

I'm a beautiful ruby

believe it or not, my last name have mean "a beautiful ruby" and thats

I am

exactly :))

made by me

gw buat gambar gambar dibawah ini barusan, aneh, ga jelas ga ngerti segala ngga deh tambah kesel haha

nah gw paling suka yg ini, sederhana tulisan putus asa yang pernah gw buat ya ini haha

sebotol yoghurt jeruk dan hati yang pecah

jujur gw lagi ga enak hati, banget
kemarin gw ngalamin hal yang ga pernah gw mau alamin
dan sekarang gw berantem lagi sama orang yang ga pengen banget gw berantem sama dia
gw capeeee banget, lelah, bingung, sampe ngeluarin kata-kata kasar ke dia
gw ga tau mesti gimana lagi, selalu kaya gini, bosen gw ngebatin terus
dia ga pernah ngerti.
dia maksa padahal gw ga suka dipaksa, akhirnya bad bad mood dan sekarang bukan bad mood lagi tapi ga ada mood.
mau ngomong baik-baik tapi gw cape harus gini terus, dia selalu ga tau mesti gimana, harus gw terus yang bilang pengen gimana, dia ga pernah berinovasi buat bikin gw surprise & seneng
mumet gw jadinya