goodbye, again

guilty, everyones have their pain, personally. but who knows? horrible things come to me, again. my lovely friends, their gone actually.
what a fuckin' friendship, I am the forgotten one. I love them so much but they're dont know. and maybe dont want to loved by me. Im just throw out from this game. a shit thing is, no one knows, no one cares. no one can understand how a complicated love of friendship, how Im loving them with my words, my hands, and my heart exactly. is this goodbye? I didn't say goodbye and never say goodbye.